fun and healthy vibes that I felt like "i never need to feel fear again".
that feeling lasted for days after the festival was over. hopefully memory of
that thought never fades.
+~
+ Don’t become easily discouraged. If you never try to go beyond that
+stage of initial discouragement because there are thoughts arising in your
+meditation, you are never going to have the true experiences of meditation.
+You need to go beyond that initial stage. You need to keep trying. If you
+keep making that effort to go beyond that initial discouragement, you will
+arrive at the experience of not getting caught up in your thoughts and mental
+events.
+ Sometimes you may even observe an increase in the frequency of thoughts.
+When that happens, don’t get discouraged. My enlightened master Jigme
+Phuntsok Rinpoche says:
+ "One sign that your meditation is beginning to be effective is that both
+subtle thoughts and obvious thoughts become more noticeable than before. This
+is not a bad sign; it’s a good sign. When water rushes in a strong river
+current, you don’t see the fish or rocks beneath the rapids. But when the
+current slows and the water becomes clear, then you can see the fish, the
+rocks, and everything below the surface distinctly. Similarly, if you never
+pay attention to your mind, and your thoughts and emotions are uncontrolled,
+you don’t even know how many thoughts go by. But when your mind becomes
+more stable and calm, you begin to see your thoughts more clearly. Don’t be
+discouraged. Take heart at this sign. Don’t hold yourself too loosely or
+too tightly. Maintain your meditation in the right way without concern and
+gradually your meditation experience will increase and stabilize."
+ Remember: Do not follow the past. Do not anticipate the future. Remain
+in the present moment. Leave your mind alone. Those four simple,
+straightforward instructions give us a chance to go beyond our mental events
+and, eventually, to experience the natural state of mind.
+ -- Orgyen Chowang Rinpoche, in "Our Pristine Mind", published by Shambhala
+ Publications
+~
+ Knowing full well that his aim is to achieve enlightenment, Sujata adopts
+a parallel program to help sustain him. Symbolically feeding Gautama with
+each offering to the priests, she utters the dedication prayer,
+ May the Bodhisattva take my food and thereby truly attain perfect and
+completely unexcelled awakening!
+ After six years of this, the gods notify her that Gautama has ceased his
+austerities and urge her to take further action. Due to her abundant good
+karma in past lives, she is preordained to serve him. Sujata sets to work
+preparing the rice milk offering in the fashion of the one thousand cows
+milked to feed the five hundred and so forth. In observing miracles around
+the cooking pot, she prays that they foretell the Bodhisattva’s imminent
+supreme awakening. She brings the rice porridge in a golden bowl to Gautama
+where he is sitting along the river and offers it to him after reverentially
+making prostrations. According to this story, the Bodhisattva regains his
+former strength and splendor upon consuming Sujata’s excellent food. In
+this version, it is his first meal after the six years of austerities and has
+instantly restored him to wholeness. After bathing and meditating at the
+river, Gautama proceeds to the tree of enlightenment. All these events have
+taken place within the span of one day.
+ -- Wendy Garling, in "Stars at Dawn", published by Shambhala Publications